I'm not going to lie: Mother's Day got a bit ugly around here. More accurately perhaps,
I got a bit ugly. Or at least my attitude did.
The day started off well at church and lunch and the kids even took really good naps. Jack stayed dry all of the way through his nap (I've lost count, but I think it's been 5 days in a row)! Jacob worked so hard to give me my requested Mother's Day gift: a simple Sunday night dinner, where we would all sit down together and that everyone could eat the same thing. No extra grilled cheese, hot dogs, or special meals. Just a simple dinner.
That's where things started to go down hill. Jacob made a great dinner, but Audrey's internal clock was stating that dinner time was not going to wait until the 5:30 time we set aside. She wanted to eat
now. And during our family meal, Jack refused to eat dinner and continued to ask to get down.
With the people, the tears, and the pressure of the day, I lost control of my attitude and I just got grumpy. It wasn't that my Mother's Day wasn't the way I wanted it. I would have been frustrated any day of the week. I just didn't choose to handle the chaos well and didn't choose to be grateful in the moment.
I say all of this not to complain, but to acknowledge that Jacob worked very hard to make the day special. The meal, the gift, the day out on Saturday... everything was wonderful. I appreciate the hard work and extra effort that it takes to cook for 11 people and honor three mothers at the same time.
I'm extremely thankful to be a mom. It's a gift that I feel grateful to have and I don't hesitate to remind Jack and Audrey that I'm extremely thankful that God allowed me to be their mommy. I'm thankful to Jacob for providing for us so well and allowing me to stay home and watch these kids grow up. At the end of a stressful day, I'm still thrilled to be the person to nurse Audrey before bed and read books to Jack while cuddled up in his rocking chair. I'm beyond blessed. And four years ago on a sad Mother's Day when we were only dreaming of children, I wasn't really sure that this day would ever come.
So thank you to Jacob for honoring me yesterday, and thank you to my mom and mother in law for being wonderful examples for me.